MaxWeiN - It’s my life

wah.. its been quite a while since i did some blogging.. i cant believe how hard skool has been.. every week confirm got a test or two.. n an assignment every fortnight.. cannot tahan la.. but at least not so complicated stuff a.

i miss miri so much.. dat day as talking to my Malaysian frens in perth… we all were saying out all the fav food we have in malaysia.. (wei! i miss supper in miri..) now im getting hungry again…. cheap stuff here is like moderate(or even expensive) price stuff in miri.. i miss EYM.. (yes including everyone in EYM) i miss prayer meetings.. weii.. boring la here… anyway..  im gona go back miri year end till end of january hopefully..

i update dis soetime else… sleepy

we christians believe that doing good and obeying God makes God happy.. REAL CHRISTIANS do good things n obey God juz because God is God, not for the place in Heaven.. (although these people are the ones who get to Heaven) We should not e selfish.. to tell u the truth, not long b4 i heard dat message in church, i always felt a lil weird about doing things to go to heaven… (it seemed a lil selfish) then this message came to ou church.. anyway its been quite a long time i shuda written this.. now baru i thot bout it.. for those of u christians who have the wrong attitude better think of wat i said…….

I’m not proud of myself being Christian.. i’m just happy that God gave me the opportunity to see his work.. i’m just proud of My GOD!!

yeayea… u will think its something amazing thats happening to m again.. this tym no.. at least not now.. im desperate for the first tym for this material thing called MONEY.. im in homestay now.. no money to pay the guardian can u believe tht? my atm card not ready yet.. dad dono yet how to transfer money to my account.. and i was supposed to pay my guardian laz friday first and last day.. i had to pay for 4 weeks in advance ($840) dats super expensive man!! termasuk food wan la this if u dono.. bt still … ouch!! now got money, bt not enuf to pay.. so bad.. couldnt use any money noow.. feel too bad to use… the guardian inssted i paid full straight away.. she said nvm, juz  wait untill u gt ure atm card done.. i dont even haf money if i got it done!! haiyo.. need to transfer boh.. see…. even in church laz weekend… wanted to give $2 coin.. but so convicted so gave $20… i dono lah.. dat time i was already needing to pay the guardian oledi loh.. n … haio nvm.. i almost gave hundred bucks in d offering bag… well i didnt,.. maybe i was what i had to do.. - give my all and trust in him dat he’d provide.i never emptied my wallet for offering b4.. now i regret not doing it.. yea n there’ll b ppl telling me i dont have to do it….. i knw God provides.. where’s my faith..

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-max

didnt grab that opportunity God’s giving..

didnt haf dat faith to give my all..

now i won’t receive the blessing He intended to give.

dat human in me muz be destroyed..

i dont wanna be so human…

I’m so sad… dahlah haf to go aus.. bag overweight again… eee so many things i haf to abandon and leave em here.. gonna miss all of u.. church again.. there’s no place like home… i’ll miss the green walls of my room… of coz oso those from d GrEeN fan club.. and my frens since childhood… all of u frens of mine lah.. my memories are just too beautiful to not think about… i’m crying inside now.. sengsara man.. i thinnk i’ll cry on bed.. u all onli haf to miss one person mah.. y so sad?.. i’ll haf to miss everyone and everything here mah.. eeee bahhhhh … eeeee..  eerrrrrr… argh!!!!!!!! hugz… tho i feel geli wen people hug me.. i love u guys.. luv u all… bubye T-T  .. u all muz do well in Miri oh.. And oso don do stupid n worthless things… tampar u klak.. T-T.. i wana go to the beach.. it’s my favorite place… mana mana lah…. as long as its not dumping area………

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being emo,

Massimo Vinca

http://www.hemmy.net/2007/02/05/stupid-signs/

http://www.hemmy.net/2006/04/26/funny-warning-signs/

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so wat were u expecting… yeah from such a blogger like me who juz never finds a person to pour things out to so dat they don ’suffer’ with me.. well as usual, something i’d lke to point out very well to everyone…

OK.. the thing is prayer meeting.. i’m owez dissapointed wen i go for prayer meeting.. youth? don even hope for it.. only a handful will turn out.. well for today.. let me count.. Me, Terrence and Amy only… wow! so little.. i noe la today women’s impact seminar.. but u all go there meh?! i don blame those who join them… some of u, kawan sik pergi pun sikda mood for prayer meeting…. owez ask ‘eh, u go prayer meeting ka?’ of oz i’d say yes lah! if i don go den how? u oso don wana go ha? wat the heck?! wat is prayer meeting  is for my dearest frens!! onli to meet kawan ka? ya aa eeee… wats wrong with u guys.. tired cannot go prayer meeting ka? yawning in prayer meeting is better den doing stupid stuff sumwhere else.. if i find out dat u guys go and do some stupid shit (lepak, party, dating, or watch football at home) instead of going prayer meeting ahh jaga u.. but now im going perth oledi, cant see u all.. u all watch wat i say.. i can be very ‘brutal’ at times.. but again don fear me but fear God.. i wana join prayer meeting at our church oso cannot now.. Apreciate it lah… so boring meh praying after all we’ve ben thru.. nothing much is happening becos d youth dn wana go prayer meeting bah… it’s my laz prayer meeting here bah for now.. u embarass me la people…

As dissapointed as owez..

stop fishing dissapoint me u guys..

~maXWein~

thanx Lit Tak for ure defense.. read Lit Taks blog.. if dats not ure situation u better check ure attitude towards God..

FIRST DAY

wen d airbus landing, felt extreme migraine in my left head and sakit mata oso.. EXTREME!! Sakit man.. wah.. den immigration long que again… freakin cold!! wah, den we go shopping few mins after reaching d apartment.. madam Joanna Wong is in same apartment!! she left smk lutong 3 years ago..

yah we went shopping.. and i was worrying we buy too much… and guess wat.. we sampai the counter rite at noon.. and of all the counters, our bill is highest at noon. (943 yuan- approx. rm 450.. )

And we got to bring back all we intended to buy for absolutely free… haha my mom joked dat i was lucky charm.. wahahaha we were joking dat we shudve bought more!! ahahahahhahahahahahha this reli makes my day.. Thank u Lord for ure blessings!! hepi hepi.. dis is how d Lord cheered me up from my distress… wow!! im so happy!!!€

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why why why why does this happen?!!!! Why didnt u listen to me? or why did i go easy on u.. y didnt i be frank .. now its too late.. yes again u make me blame myself.. though its not my fault.. but i could have done something to stop u.. look what uve done.. now u wana listen or not.. itulah u dont listen to her now look at ureslef.. worse  den other people. Is she lady boss now? i think u wud hope she is now.. i shudve just tampar ure face if its for the better.. i hate itr wen this happens.. dahlah im leaving.. now u make me leave with a heavy heart .. stupid stupid stupud… why do all these stupid things happen?? is it so hard to listen and analyse with ure brain which is good which is bad?!??!?!?! u are so naive! why do u trust only that guy.. now is he trustable.. or are YOU trustable huh?? huh?? now happy ending lah huh?

Everyone who’s reading this sorry i didnt tell u but dat day u look at mee i look brken not becuz im leaving .. its someone done something stupid.. And yes, what the fish is going on here? i cant sleep…. becuz of that stupid thing that someone did and bearing all the consequences.. don’t ask me who it is… I’ve never felt such a great dissapointment.. im broken into pieces.. i dont want to but im blaming myself for not stopping them.. yes, now wat u do? turn over a new leaf? u need to migrate somewhere and turn back to God.. people wont respect u here.. Go Go go!!!! go away if not i dono how and whatever u do don kill ureslef or him/her (u noe wat i mean) go run and hide.. trust in the Lord.. i noe u dont use frenster.. i just cant keep to myself anymore.

im understanding this song even more

"Who I Am Hates Who I’ve Been"

I watched the proverbial sunrise
coming up over the Pacific and
you might think I’m losing my mind,
but I will shy away from the specifics…

’cause I don’t want you to know where I am
’cause then you’ll see my heart
in the saddest state it’s ever been.

This is no place to try and live my life.

[Pre-Chorus]
Stop right there. That’s exactly where I lost it.
See that line. Well I never should have crossed it.
Stop right there. Well I never should have said
that it’s the very moment that
I wish that I could take back.

[Chorus]
I’m sorry for the person I became.
I’m sorry that it took so long for me to change.
I’m ready to try and never become that way again
’cause who I am hates who I’ve been.
Who I am hates who I’ve been.

I talk to absolutely no one.
Couldn’t keep to myself enough.
And the things bottled inside have finally begun
to create so much pressure that I’ll soon blow up.

I heard the reverberating footsteps
synching up to the beating of my heart,
and I was positive that unless I got myself together,
I would watch me fall apart.

And I can’t let that happen again
‘cause then you’ll see my heart
in the saddest state it’s ever been.

This is no place to try and live my life.

[Pre-Chorus x2]
[Chorus]

Who I am hates who I’ve been
and who I am will take the second chance you gave me.
Who I am hates who I’ve been
‘cause who I’ve been only ever made me…

So sorry for the person I became.
So sorry that it took so long for me to change.
I’m ready to try and never become that way again
‘cause who I am hates who I’ve been.
Who I am hates who I’ve been.

Everything seems so different now,

Ever since You’ve called my name,

And told me what You want me to be

And gave me all I yearn for.

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You came to me out of the blue,

I didn’t even have to move a toe

Oh, what else should I do but

to submit to all You desire

‘

Pre-c:

Every single day I crave for

More of You within me

Every single night I pray,

I just can’t get enough of You.

‘

ermm blur oledi… nick we think shud change the way the chorus is… it suddenly die down lke dat.. maybe shud be more lively.. we’ll try tonite